Avec mon coeur… je t’aime de plus en plus chaque jour. 

Emotional Hurricane

It’s been a rough week.. I spiralled down a tunnel of mixed emotions and just as hurricane Sandy is hitting the East coast, I find myself trying to survive in my own personal hurricane.

No one is really over the past, over the hurt that they’ve felt, wounds that they’ve healed, insecurities that they once had overcome…and if I were to hide behind a smile and say that everything was okay and that I was 100% pain-proof from my past, I’d be lying. You see, no matter how prepared you are for the worst, no matter how sheltered you keep yourself, you are never fully prepared for anything that may come your way, even if you are familiar with the situation. And like a sucker punch to the gut you get the wind knocked out of you and you’re left confused and motionless. Now you can stay down for as long as you need, but we all know that if you stay down permanently that’s a T.K.O! Hopefully, your pride will never let you get to that point. I sure as hell will never let myself get to that point. 

You need to get back up and try again… 

People are going to judge your calls on how you tackle a situation but if it’s YOUR way of getting back up on your two feet then nothing should affect you. If it’s one thing that I’ve learned, it’s that you should never go with the easiest or obvious answer because sometimes that answer isn’t right for your own personal learning and growth experience. Despite how broken you are, your mind, your heart, your gut, your ability to sense your situation…those god-given traits are the puzzle pieces to the right answer.

I wear my heart on my sleeve like a new Michael Korr’s piece..

I’m going to take the risk and trust my instinct even though it’s led me time and time again to this very exact predicament. But I allow myself to because no love is like the last, no person is the same, and although history may repeat itself, every woman or man deserves a chance to reconcile with his or her past in order to move forward in to a world with no regrets..

— Joyce

 

Whenever that may be…

Quality > Quantity

This equation in its most simplest form can be applied to almost EVERYTHING. Hitting the 26 year mark in my life I am starting to realize just how important it is to be surrounded by an environment that supports you at your lowest and raises you even higher at your best. Life was never meant to be a popularity contest and although it is something favorable in your early years, it becomes far from your concern as you get older. For the ones you hold close as your quality and not your quantity:

1. Never demand to be respected or loved, you can only ask for it in return with your own actions.
2. You are never better than the people you surround yourself with so be humble, make mistakes and learn to own up to them.
3. Listen to what your friends have to say even though it may not be what you want to hear — their words hurt the most only because you care about them like they care about you.

You lose some only to gain more in life. An honest relationship in love and friendship is a blessing to keep for many more years to come. So count your blessings and if it only happens to be one or two or less than a hand, remember, less is more!

xo Joyce