I’m blessed with a little piece of heaven with every waking moment, every lesson learned, every journey conquered, every experience made, every chance to fall in love with someone, something, somewhere in life. And with every year that passes these moments, these lessons, these journeys and experiences, this love.. is an existential piece to the mosaic of heaven I’m living right now.
Personal Thought, Goodbye 2012 — Hello 2013
Happy New Year everyone!
This year I’m rediscovering BC. Why spend on a trip away when you have all the luxuries right at your door step? I’m kicking off my summer now. May Long Weekend is on its way here in Canada and I took an extra two days off to make it a 5-day weekend. (Does that even make sense? Haha). Everyone seems to be going away while I’m staying in town recovering from the huge chunk of money I spent paying off all of my debt. Anyway, I spoke to a friend who will also be staying within the city and we decided to make the most of this weekend by doing local things which in turn will give us a deeper appreciation for the City, the Province that we live in. I could be a beach bum every day or I can do local activities…hmmm, “Operation Tourist Summer in BC” it is. I’ve lived here all the 25 going on 26 years of my life and haven’t even gone to Whistler yet! Shocker! On my event/trip list: Whistler, Okanagan Winery, Osoyoos, Victoria, Tofino, Bowen Island, Camping up North, Abbottsford - Castle Fun Park (that’s really happening this weekend!), Science World - Da Vinci and Lego Gallery, Jazz Bands — Live Bands, Festivals, Good eats anywhere and everywhere etc, etc…
I have also decided to celebrate my 26th Birthday this year. Now, for anyone who knows me really well will know that this is a huge stepping stone for me because I really don’t like direct attention on myself. But, I figured why celebrate such a redundant predominantly epic age, such as 30, to fully appreciate the things and people in my life! I feel that this is an important year for me (I just paid my debt off so I can work towards saving up for a home of my own) and I’ve made it this far with a huge support system holding me up and down (when need be) through out these years. This is more of a celebration of these people rather than my birthday, which works out in totally diverting the attention. :) To have all the people that I love and care about under one roof, who make me the best that I can be and motivate me to excel in life is a humbling experience and I want to remember every bit of it. Ergo, I’m keeping it easy on the drinks and no heavy partying will be induced afterwards.
Hopefully to cap off my Summer I can take a trip to a home away from home, San Francisco. Two of my good friends are having a baby together end of this year and I would really like to see them even beforehand. It’s an exciting moment, a process of growth between two people who have successfully found love within each other. I can’t help but smile for the both of them. Their love will be a one-day inspiration for me.
So let’s cheers to a good season, with hopes of great weather! Kick off Summer by being a bit more adventurous in your own home and city. Live life to its fullest potential not only on the sunny days and be grateful for all that surrounds you…including yourself! ;)
The Cardigans - Communication
This song holds much meaning to me. Being the introvert that I am (until I get to know a person) I tend to bare walls that are greater than the Great Wall of China. Communication is a key variable to any type of relationship and sometimes when signals are mixed in the “lack of,” people disconnect. Communication, the one major thing I’m working on as we speak. I never wanted to be an open book for fear of what others would think but I think I’m at that age where my voice…my opinions should matter. Ergo, the journey to self-discovery and a balanced confidence level will definitely be achievable.
PS - Last YouTube video for the night, I promise..
The New Year is filled with promises, new hopes, new beginnings…new and MORE responsibilities. I, for one, have never believed in the concept of “resolutions.” My thought was always, why wipe your slate clean and start anew just because it’s a “new” year when you can do that at any point in the 365 days that a year encompasses?! But I’m not letting my narrowness get the best of me this 2012. See, it’s been a rough couple of years trying to figure out what adulthood has to offer. You know, finding some sort of niche in this world. With that, I’ve learned that traits from years ago can linger into the present. Some good, some bad. I’ve run through numerous cul-de-sacs in life where I’ve needed to turn around over and over again. I’ve hit dead ends where there are still no answers till this day. Most importantly, I’m learning and I’m growing. I know that I can be overly hard on myself when I’m set-back in life and I think that’s what I’m wanting to work on this new year. A different me. A better me. A full acceptance of me…solely for myself and not necessarily for others.
Primarily, I want to learn more about who “Joyce” is, what she likes, why she talks in third-person sometimes. I want to know what makes me genuinely laugh, what ultimately makes me cry, excluding monthly female hormonal reasons. I want to love…fall deep in love, where I choose not to hold back any part of me because there are no reasons to. I want to make my own decisions with out the influence of anything or anyone…regardless of how others view these decisions, it’ll be most uplifting knowing that it is my own. — Whether it’s right or wrong my hope is that I will learn from these decisions and they will mold me in to who I want to be. I want to be completely vulnerable and honest with myself and with others and not be afraid of what other people think. Because those who mind don’t matter, and those who matter don’t mind. (I’ve learned that the hard way). Above all of this, I want to be genuinely happy and complacent at where I am in my life. I’ve been through enough lows that I’m ready to start climbing back up to the top…getting high on being high on life. Goals, goals, goals. Check marks. Happy faces. All that and more.
2011 you’ve been a rollercoaster. I think I’ve learned from you the most and I thank you for that. You’ve opened my eyes to a wider set, a clearer vision. I’ve lost a lot to gain a lot. The anticipation of what is to come in the next year and however many years my life is blessed with, is a thrilling one. I can’t wait! Live everyday like it’s your last but keep in mind that there is always a plan for the future. There will be battles and I’m ready for the scars, for these are the tribulations that will take me very far…far off to a place where I’m meant to be, defining the very definition of “me.”
Have a very happy and successful New Year!!