“Beeej” (May 6, 1985 - March 19, 2007)

It’s been five years since the last time we corresponded through anything. A little over five years since you gave me that last eProp on Xanga or since I heard from you on MySpace. Close to six years since we last hung out at the park while you heavily strummed the guitar while I tried to sing some Dashboard Confessional song.

Beeej, I miss you terribly and this past Sunday was especially hard for me. I woke up with a heavy heart knowing that today would be five years since all of that. I remember you telling me that the reason why we understood each other so well was because we both had a keen sense of this harsh world we live in. If you only knew. At my darkest of days you were the one who told me to “close my eyes and fall back and feel the wind blow beneath me”…I was so scared but you reassured that I had these subliminal wings that would lift me up and above any obstacle. These wings you spoke of…has never been more evident to me since the day you left.

Losing a best friend has probably been the biggest predicament a person could overcome. Rising above this situation has taught me that I am strong enough to rise above any occasion. Something you continuously told me. Something I never completely understood until now.

I am not grieving over your loss, I’m celebrating everything you’ve taught me and using it to my best potential. I am happy to have had such a person of amazing significance and influence in my life. I am excited to unfold this journey of life knowing that you will guide me through the great and the horrible.

Cheers to you my dear friend…I miss and love you lots!

This is not goodbye, this is ‘I’ll see you later!’”

Until then…

xo Joyce